Hurt me.. please

I want to get us really fucked up
High or drunk
And cover your body
With love marks
Made by my nails and teeth.
I want to fuck you
And love you
So hard that you hurt
With pleasure the next day.
I want to feel your body
On mine and in mine

I want to capture your marks with my camera
I want to capture that look on your face when you look at me
I see you looking at me.
I know you remember what it was like to have me naked in your arms.


I started to write this a week ago but I’ve realized that I’m finally falling out of love with you. I don’t know if it’s because I haven’t seen you in a week. I don’t know if it’s because you somehow keep bailing. I know it’s not your fault but when we started talking again, I realized I still wanted you SO badly. I don’t know how, after all the shit you put me through, after all the shit we went through. After the countless panic attacks. After the countless tears I shed. After all of this, I still wanted you. I wanted to remember the feel of your body and wanted to be yours.
But now I don’t think I do. I don’t even know why……

"If you aren't getting happier as you get older, you're fucking it up."-Ani Difranco

I’m still so crazy about you

it sucks